29 December 2014

Today is my birthday. Stay at home as usual. 

4 October 2014

Count down 4 days to back Malaysia, can't wait to leave this place 

Random photo of the day, Disneyland Paris 

3 October 2014

Yes, it's October already. Last post was a month ago. Not easy to get internet in Europe country, and toilet expensive too. Went for Europe trip for 16 days and 5 day on Scotland and back to Amsterdam for 10 day. Currently at Amsterdam friends house. No special feel here, just wanna back Malaysia settle down and distribute my resume out. At this moment while type this out. At friends house which is a very nice and complete family. Definitely envy them, watch 爱回家 alone at the couch. Episode 607 and 608 it somehow remind me of how much u can sacrifice for love. 

Random photo of the month? I like toys. It somehow remind me of childhood instead of continue growing up 

4 September 2014

It's been more than a month since last post. Getting myself to Europe trip tomorrow. Over weight luggage on mind make me headache bit. Went to kitchen and cook my last meal here. Watch drama and eat is one of the best feel. But, I'm actually kinda sentimental. I had to admit this, I always cry to those drama. I'm 23 years old man and still cry on drama 😂

Random photo of the day night view of Albert Dock 

26 July 2014

Finish a Chinese drama marathon. A quite long 1 , name : Lan Lin Wang. I don't usually watch a china drama, but once I watch it is 1 of the best I ever seen. Very good story plot, romantic and action story. It's about a general from china how he sacrifice for his love. Very touching indeed. How a strong general become innocence Infront of his love. This is the power of love. Like the song of the drama too, match nicely. 

Random photo of the day 

London eye !

16 July 2014

I get depress so much that, I lightly slap my ass to sleep. Pretend there is someone beside me on the night . Oh no =( 

Random photo for today

9 July 2014

The hard to control me is back again. Bought something from online again. Buying thing in UK through online is so nice, 😱 bought a abercombie shirt at discounted price. Then they send me a tracking webpage, I got no idea what they expect me to respond . They actually send a foreign language postal company website to me . I'm so speechless . Will wait for it then =) control control 

Random photo of the day is rainbow on hostel

7 July 2014

Went for a gym in UK. Doesn't feel awkward because the people here doesn't work out very hardcore. What a great feeling it is to open the gym door, change into my workout gear and put on my gloves with music blasting into my ears. The gym is my world, my universe. It's like I'm on my own, a battle against the iron but mainly one against myself and my limits! 

Photo of the day is the supplement I ordered at UK. Very good service ! 5 star for myprotein.com and bodybuilding UK 

3 July 2014

I know I'm quite anti social 😁 but this is who I'm . Even I'm anti social but I do have friends, just not a lot a lot of friends. Friends are important too. I can't achieve something without their help. I need help on my assignment too. 

Photo of the day is my daily lunch or dinner variant. Kinda boring Like my lifestyle 😂 

2 July 2014

There is a myth that when someone give u a pair of shoe as present. That mean u will leave the person. Unless u pay him\her a bit of money. It's like paying back the person. 

Think of this when I was watching a Taiwan drama. Love myself or you 

1 July 2014

It's 1st of July ! Another month started, good for those who work, get ur salary on this time and for others, continue live through ur life. 

My July greeted me with a nice result. Not a study result of course, it's my body analysis

81 of fitness score which is a A for me. And the 14.9% percentage of body fat. Trainer say it's consider good. Will have to reduce it abit and increase muscle mass to the over level .

29 June 2013

People often ask me what is my religion, I told them I'm free thinker. Why? Because I don't believe on those, I'm not superstition. I believe fate is on our hand. It work on how u work on it. Not depend on other stuff. 

Random photo of the day preparing beef steak

28 June 2014

Today a friend told me she will cry when watch book. I told her boy will cry too. Like me, I will cry when I saw some pity person or animal stuff =( sometime movie too. 

So far the best movie I like, the click. From Adam. It's about how a guy get a remote that can control his life, pause it, rewind it or anything it can do with it. But there is a side effect on using it. Ur life gets accelerate faster too. U watch what u regret on. The thing u haven't do it when u was on dilemma. Till u get old and u regret. Life is like a movie. 

Another random photo of the day, sit on downstair staring at the sky all day long. 

27 June 2014

Bought myself a bike to travel for this 3 month, buy groceries, go class and etc. 

remember the first gift I bought with my salary from internship is a watch. The best gift you could give someone is your time because you're giving them something that you'll never get back .

25 June 2014

What a lucky day. Been here for 1 month and get hit by bird poop for 3 times. Haha. Too many big bird here. 

Some of my friend wonder why I can communicate with local here so well. This is my secret . Hahaha

24 June 2014

Then there I go again, I message her again. Because I still care of her so much. Then I message her to take care herself =( when I can't even take cAre of her. Btw all the best in ur career. 

Random photo of the day include myself inside this time. Been scolded by fren cause I always travel alone 😁

23 June 2014

Happen to travel around London this few day. Depression happen when I try to check in on the place I went. She appear on all of them. Somehow remind me how useless I'm that I can't take her to travel last time. It's all gone, have to move on anyway. Hope she is happy with his life there with new bf. 

Random photo of the day, sky get scar from plane

22 June 2014

Here I am, the London. One of the best city to spot supercar? Hopefully =) gotta miss my bed in my liberty Atlantic point. Left something on my window before I left to Stonehenge and London

21 June 2014

Today a friend say im that kind of person that will let go my lover if I love her. Hmm, I guess she is right . Sometime, u have to let go something u love. 

The truth is, unless you let go, unless you forgive urself, unless you forgive the situation, unless you realize that the situation is over, you cannot move forward. Letting go doesn't mean that you don't care about that person anymore. I do care a lot a lot. Just like the first day I knew her. That kind of passion still here. =D

Some birds are not meant to be caged,their feathers are too bright, theirs song too sweet. So you let them go, or when u open the cage to feed them, they somehow fly out and the part of you know it's was wrong to imprison then in the first place. But still the place where you live is that much more empty for thei arrive. 

Here is another random photo of the day 

I wonder did I post this photo before @@

20 June 2014

What a bad luck day, shit happen sometime 😁 have to be more careful next time. When help my fren repair his bicycle get hit by my own bicycle when I bend down. Almost faint when get hit. So pain. Photo of the day = my head 

19 June 2014

Come across this when I reading this book. Oh my god, why the person tear this out. The page that I need, ish..

18 June 2014

What a careless day. Knock so hard on my head when I try to fix my bike. The bike got no stand and fall down when I fix it T.T

Now my head got mountain pop .ish >< damn pain. Gonna prepare well for next week my first alone bike trip =) 

My random photo on this post, almost vomit when take photo on this cruise

17 June 2014

There is only few song in my playlist. Some nice 1, like what are words from Chris medina. A reli nice 1. It always appear on my mind the lyrics. 

16 June 2014

I don't understand what those guy doing == why isit so hard to cheer ur own gf? Like ur gf in Liverpool, u in Sheffield. Dat short distance, go pop out and surprise ur gf la. And those at Malaysia can stay up long bit to chat with ur gf make them know u would sacrifice ur sleep time for them. Isit so hard to do it?

 I'm saying this because those girl in my hostel which 90% of them already got bf and most of them get depressed so much because of bf not bother them. Boys ! Appreciate before it's too late 

Here a random photo I took today to match my post =) 

15 June 2014

Going for Whitby trip in 5 more hour, it's the World Cup fever for this month. Expect everyone will be in panda mode. And me hardly fall asleep right now. Dunno what happen and still trying hard to figure it out. The tak tak sound from my keyboard. Make me feel so lost. The photo I took from alberdock when they reverse the ship

7 June 2014

No easy job in this world, this is what I always tell my friend that is already in working life. Instead of stressed at there, why not work hard little bit or endure the stress from Bos or work? I know I'm not qualify yet to talk as a working person (p.s Haven't get my job yet =p ) but once u get to work, u know u dint get paid to go there for sit only right? U been expect to contribute to them. If u feel underpaid, or overpaid. If underpaid, go compare ur workload with others that similar to u. If urs much more heavy, go and find another better offer job. If you're overpaid, which hardly happen nowadays, u have to work harder in order to help ur Bos. 

Finalise them for u, do u want to work for money or passion?

5 June 2014

I don't know what happen, but something bad happen for sure .

4 June 2014

Today I woke up. I'm healthy. I'm alive. Thank you 

3 June 2014

Always happy, upbeat, and joking when I'm around a group of people.

Always doubting myself, Sad and beating myself up when I'm alone. 

2 June 2014

Everyday living in the fear that everyone will betray me. It been haunted me for a month since the past incident. Oh gosh. I'm so afraid of meeting new friend. Especially female friend =(

1 June 2014

Friend often ask me why I don't update anything on FB or Instagram, it's because this is how I'm gonna disappear myself from social network. But yet it's hard for me not to find her =( 

31 May 2014

Because the truth sometime hurts 

29 May 2014

如果不出去走走，你或许以为这就是世界

28 May 2014

Whenever I'm depressed, I hear this song . It doesn't calm me . But yet it speak out my voice in heart . 

27 May 2014

Be sure to do something everyday that makes her like you more than she did the day before

25 may 2015

When u getting older, a lot of thing doesn't matter to u anymore. 

23 May 2014

23th may, the day I will go to Liverpool for further study. Another sleepless night, insomnia night. Watching the 24 episode of m club drama. Which is the most Emo episode ever. Oh no, the Emo feel strike me again. Then look at parent that sleep at another room, how many year can I accompany them? Suddenly all the urge to wanna work oversea disappear , feel like want to accompany family only. Feel like this on this moment, hope that there is someone here to share with me or at least talk with me. 

21 May 2014

Another insomnia night. I wan to sleep please. My brain can u stop work for while? 

20 May 2014

I want to sleep please >< 

13 May 2014

梁詠琪嫁人了，她曾為鄭伊健通宵學玩電游，只是一個曾經而已；劉若英嫁人了，她等了陳國富21年，只是如今等不起而已；侯佩岑嫁人了，她是周傑倫唯一承認的戀情，只是愛得起卻給不了自由和安定而已；梁靜茹嫁人了，她的婚禮上沒有瑪莎的影子，只是期望也終究會變成絕望而已；謝霆鋒和張柏芝，姚晨和凌霄肅，秦海璐和李厚霖，梁朝偉和張曼玉，鞏俐和張藝謀。這麼多的愛情，在時間面前一攤開，全部失去了它該有的色彩和溫柔。

你放過了對方，放過了自己，可是時間不會放過你。無意間，在好友的空間看到這樣一句話：只是後來我們沒有在一起。當時，有些觸動。身在這個沼澤境地，自己也曾義無反顧地不顧一切，到後來，生死相依變成了生生相厭。每一段記憶，都有一個密碼。時間，人物，地點，一旦吻合，無論相隔多久，那個模糊的人都會立刻清晰。過去的不過是時間，過不去的是我們自己，我把它稱之為宿命，一種無能為力的宿命。

張國榮對梅艷芳說過，等我們到40歲，你未嫁，我未娶，我們就在一起。可是後來，他在03年4月1日墜樓殞身，她在同年12月30日肺功能衰竭病逝。那年，她剛好40歲。

宋丹丹經歷了四段感情和三次婚姻。初戀五年，可時間送走了一切。第一次婚姻，她為英達守口如瓶。第二次婚姻，曾被她稱為最滿意的生活，但仍舊走到山窮水盡。第三次婚姻，她再也不像年輕時那樣衝動了。她說：“原本只想要一個擁抱，不小心多了一個吻，然後你發現需要一張床，一套房，一個證……離婚的時候才想起：你原本只想要一個擁抱。

39歲的張惠妹，仍在閃光燈前捧著數座獎杯擺好看的pose。她是阿密特，她是火。三年的“正妹戀”告吹那天，她把帽子壓低，眼角泛潮。07年，她在唱《如果你也聽說》時毫無懸念的哽咽。歌詞裡說：“跌跌撞撞才明白了許多，等我的人就你一個”。她現在還是單身，她深愛的男子一直在等她嫁給他。

2000年劉燁初識謝娜，三年後兩人牽手高調亮相。他曾對她承諾：“只要謝娜今天說結婚，我明天就娶她。”可是六年後，劉燁結婚，謝娜哭了整整一晚，新娘不是她。

你愛的他/她雖然不像上面的任何一對。也許時間還很多，不知道多年後，是否還能像現在這樣彼此喜歡。

劉燁結婚了。他在婚禮前，把自己關起來哭了好長時間。曾經說著“這輩子最幸福的事，就是娶謝娜，只要她願意嫁給我，我現在就可以娶她”就這樣和另外一個女人結婚了。 劉燁說，他一輩子都不會忘了謝娜，可是這樣的話聽著都會覺得傷感。劉燁最終也沒有和謝娜在一起。那個說著非謝娜不娶的劉燁，也結婚了，娶了一個法國女人。 那時候，大概你愛我，我愛你，就是簡單愛情的全部 。何炅好像說過，謝娜和劉燁沒分手的時候，已經很久不見。有一天在北京機場遇見，劉燁說，寶寶，你不抱抱我嗎？然後謝娜就哭的不行了。看著謝娜的自傳裡有一部分是說她和劉燁的。 6年的感情讓她們彼此都成長了不少。 謝娜說他們在大家都不看好的時候堅強的在一起，卻在大家都對他們祝福的時候分開了。 6年！

那個說著非李大齊不嫁的周迅，也單身了。不知道是為什麼。 只知道，他們5年的感情，會成為他們彼此生命中最精彩的時光。 5年!

之前辛曉琪在演唱會上，再次唱響那首《領悟》時，哭的如此傷心，痛徹心扉。辛曉琪最終也沒有和愛的人在一起，想必是真的領悟了。

我們，一直都是在輸給時間。 所以說，這年頭，還有什麼能讓我們動心，讓我們相信呢。

陳升曾做過件很煽情的事。 他提前一年預售了自己演唱會的門票。 僅限情侶購買。 一人的價格可以獲得兩個席位。 但是， 一份情侶券分為男生券和女生券。 戀人雙方各自保存屬於自己的那張券，一年後，兩張券合在一起才能奏效。 票當然賣得很快。 也許這個是戀人雙方證明自己愛情的方式吧。 “我們要在一起一輩子呢。”“一年，算什麼。” 這場演唱會的名字叫做 。。。明年你還愛我嗎？ 聽似很簡單的疑問句，實現起來卻被赤裸裸的現實擊敗。 到了第二年。 陳升專設的情侶席位。 果然空了好多位子。 他面對著那一個個空板凳，臉上帶著怪異的歉意， 唱了最後一首歌：把悲傷留給自己。

漸漸發現……相戀多年的人們就這樣形同陌路，彼此生活。或許，他們並不是不愛對方了，而是不能給對方各自要的生活。應該相信，他們或許依然愛著對方。只是，一個不懂得怎麼去愛，一個相愛卻無能為力。生活就是這樣，最終相守到老的人，也許並不是那個曾經許下山盟海誓，承諾白頭偕寫的很真實！多少真愛被現實擊敗！

終究時間會帶走一切。到底是什麼讓我們松開了彼此的手？到底是什麼讓我們放棄了自己，放棄了對方？會一直說真的沒什麼，然後又對著別人的故事沉默。表面終究會歸於平靜，只是內心的波濤洶湧卻不為人知。只有自己才知道，誰是自己真正愛的那個人，誰又是傷了自己的那個人。所以最後的最後，當我們都有了彼此的歸屬，你只能是我記憶中模糊地剪影而已。

一個女人突然決絕的跟相愛五年的男友分了手，閃電般嫁了他人。她說她要結婚，她實在等不起了，而他雖然愛她，卻根本沒有一點這方面的意思。 過了幾年，男人也結婚了。 那個新娘其實未必比她出色多少，或者這一次他的愛沒多麼深， 只不過她出現的時機實在太好了，剛剛好在他萌生倦意想安定下來的時候。 於是，不需要什麼更好的理由了，她來得正是時候，那麼，就是她了。

其實我們尋尋覓覓了那麼久，遍嘗每一次愛情的甜蜜與艱辛， 而最後選擇的愛人，不過就是在我們心意動時，經過身邊的那一個。 什麼青梅竹馬，什麼心有靈犀，什麼一見鐘情，都不過是些錦上添花的借口， 時間才是冥冥中一切的主宰。

回首往事的時候，想起那些如流星般劃過生命的愛情， 我們常常會把彼此的錯過歸咎為緣分。 其實說到底，緣分是那麼虛幻抽像的一個概念， 真正影響我們的，往往就是那一時三刻相遇與相愛的時機。

男女之間的交往，充滿了猶疑忐忑的不確定與欲言又止的矜持， 一個小小的變數，就可以完全改變選擇的方向。

如果你出現的早一點，也許她就不會和另一個人十指緊扣； 又或者相遇的再晚一點， 晚到兩個人在各自的愛情經歷中慢慢學會了包容和體諒，善待和妥協， 在你最美麗的時候，你遇見了誰？ 在你深愛一個人的時候，她又陪在誰身邊？ 在你心靈最脆弱的時候，又是誰在與她同行愛情到底給了你多少時間，去相遇和分離，去選擇和後悔？

重溫《大話西游》， 看到紫霞深愛至尊寶的時候，他心心念念的尋找他的白晶晶， 而當他終於看到了她留在心裡的那一滴淚，卻已經失去了選擇的權利。 每一次看到他潛入另一個人的身體，去償還前世欠她的一句承諾， 再看他在夕陽下孤獨的走遠，總是情不自禁的想要落淚。

不是不心動，不是不後悔，但已經沒有時間，再去相擁。 如果愛一個人而無法在一起， 相愛卻無法在適當的時間相遇， 如果你愛了，卻愛不對時間，除了珍藏那一滴心底的淚，無言的走遠，你又能有什麼選擇？

時間的荒野，沒有早一步也沒有晚一步， 於千萬人之中，去邂逅自己的愛人，那是太難得的緣分， 更多的時候，我們只是在彼此不斷的錯過，錯過了楊花飄飛的春，又錯過了楓葉瑟索的秋， 直到漫天白雪，年華不再，在一次次的心酸感嘆之後，才能終於了解。即使真摯，即使親密，即使兩個人都已是心有戚戚，我們的愛，依然需要時間來成全和考驗。 這世界有著太多這樣那樣的限制與隱秘的禁忌， 又有太多難以預測的變故和身不由己的離離合合， 一個轉身，也許就已經一輩子.

10 May 2014

Thanks mei ling aunt =) 

9 May 2014

                      Story of my life 

6 May 2014

Dint know it can be so hard to sleep nowadays. Wake up by nightmare all the time. Aiks. So hard to get back to sleep. Thing that is easy to do last time become difficult to do after time passes . I'm old dy.

5 May 2014

3 May 2014

Why do u want to lie on me? 

Why? =( 

do u know it hurt me so much? 

Why not just tell me u don't like me anymore? 

Why must let me know u got other guy?

Why? 

2 May 2014

现在的人因为把大部分的时间都投入在工作上，投入在社交上但是往往却忽略身边每天亲近的家人。

有时候父母想要跟你讲讲话甚至谈心，却因为子女忙于工作与社交而忽略了生您的父母亲的感受，而你却在乎你眼前的工作甚至你的电话跟电脑，千万不要等错过之后再来后悔，多关心你的父母亲相处的时刻，不要他们跟你说话，你眼睛还看着电话。

30 April 2014

It's 540 am now. Averagely wake up to view phone 1 time every hour after sleep  

29 April 2014

Just did some bank stuff today. Apply a cc and a new maybank acc. Kuantan bank is crowded by people. Only 2 number diff I have to wait 30 minute. 

Today, saw a old fren of mine upload some of her photo. Remind me of how supportive of this fren were. Unlike others normal friend. She is by far the best 1, always stay by my side when I'm down, always talk good stuff Infront of me, cheers up and support me, most important I'm like a idol for her. People like to hear compliment from others, same as me. When anyone compliment on u, ur day was like brighter after all the negative thing happen. I tend to compliment others nowadays, control my rage and try to help others. Today successfully not mad at my mother. Sometime I get angry too easily. I know my bad tempered not every like. I dint feel it myself. I have to keep telling myself to calm down. Today is a good day to start with. Cheers 

27 April 2014

I'm a hard person to love but when I love, I love really hard. 

25 April 2014

Last day of my intern, happy? No? Sad? No? No feel at all. What a Friday, the moment when I realize I'm a stone that do not contribute to anyone. Just a obstacle to someone. Never been so disappointed before. Feel sorry to my friends and family, to anyone that I offense u, I say sorry to u again. 

24 April 2014

Today is a not a good day for some person out there. Definitely not a good day for me either. Relative just passed away today. Not really close 1, but sadness still hit on me at the night. The moment when u realize someone close to u leave u suddenly. Hard to imagine how much it hurt u. A father to a family, a husband to a wife and a dad to a small cute boy. Make me tear so bad at the night. Accident took his life. Hopefully this Sunday able to meet the family. My condolences to the family. =(

23 April 2014

3 day left to end my internship at Royal selangor. Went for workout with sister today. Back home and found the bonuslink letter at mailbox . Dint realize I got almost 10k point , someof them gonna expired soon. So I redeemed my self a Li ning badminton racquet. To keep myself busy all the time. I even play badminton and basketball. Haha. Good night 😬

21 April 2014

Ending my internship in 4 day more. Await the lunch treat from my colleague =) boredom strike me again. Nothing to do all night long. Gonna sleep early again. Time for some sleep song 

14 April 2014

2014 first insomnia night? Damn, can't sleep now. How I goin to work, I don't want keep yawn at work >< have to grab a coffee .

13 April 2014

Went to badminton today with housemate, after that go for steamboat and then help my fren change car tyre. How do I keep my time occupied all the time? Feel bit too free on weekend. I can't just workout for whole day. 

11 April 2014

Some girl think their bf is the hero, some think is their idol. Some is they will proud of. Wonder what am I to my gf? Nothing much to proud of I guess. Not hero too I think. She is a great girl now. No longer the small kid that like hello kitty. Her independent in Singapore makes me proud of her. And I no longer needed to help her. I feel so proud her. Hope u doin great there. 👍

2 April 2014

I saw a thread on lowyat. I think I might as well share it here. So that I can refer back next time? The thread is about career talk. In my age, what appear in my mind is mostly on future and career only. The guy with 8k salary on age 26 ! Not bad right? But yet he mention that still hard to survive. So I was wondering how much do I need to earn when I work? The guy is on oil and gas job, with a child instead. People with a kid, it's like u have to double ur salary in order to form a family with kid. Talk bout oils and gas, my father is on this sector too, honestly speaking, he earn 10-120k a month yet he told me it's ngam ngam enough only. I don't think it's a way to scare me. It's more like a reality. No matter how much u earn, u will still hardly survive. Guess I have to view more jobstreet now, cheras =)