So it is.

Not really addicted to online surf net anymore.

There is much more i need to do.

Will be starting to hardworking after this week

And....just ignore the previous post

Dont like any any girl now =)

Just wanna study hard.

MaoCheng is not eligible to start a relationship

Its so complicated

I like u
I spend some happy time with u.
I like the way u talking
I like the way u act
I dream of you almost everynite
but..i got no brave to asking u be my gf
i am nt good enough to be ur bf
There is lot more good guy behind
As those ppl usually say
IF the people u like is happy..u will happy too
Haha.
Dont feel like wanna start a relationship..
Feel like cnnt giv my other part of my life happiness..
Sometime i almost cnnt control myself..
typed a message

"Can we advance our relationship?from friends to girlfriends?Would u be my Girlfriend?"

But dint send it out la...haha..saved it a draft everytime..

Those friend that keep on questioning me who is that bad luck girl

Haha
here is some hint..
-She is younger than me(1 year 2 year 3 year?who know)haha
-Her hair is long (haha.kinda hard huh?)
-Wearing spectacle? (i oso duno..but mostly she is on contact lens)
-Super WHite skin (For me.. =p)
-Super lightweight girl.. 30+ to 40
-A girl that full of curiousity and kinda rude..haha

For those that know who is her.Please keep it as secret bah..
I dun wan scare her..
haha,thanks lot.

Sad Case

MUm..why dont u believe me?
Do u admit that i am ur son?
Please Do believe me.
i know there is something i hiding from u
but i promise it is not a bad thing

Seriously..having a conversation with mum just now
and i cried...i trying to solve the question she was asking
and she keep on blaming
i keep on explaining
Useless...she wont hear..everything..everything..Right is on her side..
Why?Why u keep on hurt me with those word?
And while i am still smiling explaining to u with tear?
Even its ur problem..and i am still saying sorry..
U are my mum..
Eventhou its ur wrong i will be blamed oso
i dun care bout tis..i wont argue..
because u still my mum..
Sorry...

Sigh

Not really Good mood nowaday..

But..

I dint express it out..

haha..kinda okay already now

This gonna be a long post...haha

sorry for the long post..just wanna express my feeling..sorry guys.

This Few Day keep on Drive between Seremban And KL

To visit my grandmom..

She kinda okay already..

But abit dizzy now..

Its worth for me to drive so far to find her.

Watch at her health getting better..Its Worth.

Payed her Hopsital money,RM5.5k shared among my mum and her 4 bro sis

Realize that my sight is getting worse.

Eye sight getting blur after drive for 1 hour..nid about 30min to recover to normal.

After get down from car.Look like a guy without spec.haha.kicked the platform nearby seremban jusco there and almost fall down =.=

Remember monday went seremban tat day..

kinda sad when visit my grandmum.tear almost coming out

take out my phone.and realize that i got no people to contact with

I lost a person that are important 100 day ago.therefore i doesnt expect to get any msg from her

And so,i lost contact with most of my fren too.at that time.i wont be blame u guys,coz i know if i got gf i will be like that too..

i do feel that i need soomeone that caring me..someone that will sms me all the time asking my status.

Jealous on those teenage that their hp keep on ringing.keep on smsing.and when they sms,smile appear on their face..

AIKS....

And so,i feel that i do really let go my ex gf already..

Feel that,her decision that dumb me is good.

It should be..

And i know we will not be forever since we together.

And i dint blame u of anything

I know i am not good enough

And i do not reach ur requirement

U were rich than me.i cnnt giv u something that are good

U doing Degree and me?only diploma..how am i giving u happiness for the future..

Yes,and u are really good,u become the bad person coz u started to say the break word.

And i am so naive that still wanna get back into the relationship

Sorry for everything..hope u and the guy will be okay all the time

(sorry ya.duno that guy de name)

For the 6 year that i told u i will be waiting u..

just ignore it

but i tink will be changed to 6 year without relationship ba

there is 4 girl chasing me now.but as u say..dont give fake hope to others.

kinda agree to that word..so i dint giving them hope.

I got no brave to start a relationship

but i do like a girl.

but i not dare to tell her

i scare she will ignore me afterward.

i am not good enough.

cnnt giv her what she wan.

i got no income.my education level and my appearance sucks

I got no more confident.

Just act like normal =)

Miss u and love u always my grandmother =)

Hope u recover soon.

Going to basketball in 8 hour time..

Love u grandmom

Today went back to KL..Mum fetch me..

After reach KL,put our stuff then my turn to drive to Seremban to visit My grandmum.

She got some problem on her stomach.Same as mine >.<

By using my GPS,used 1 hour to reach Columbia asia Hospital

Slowly push the ward door.saw my grandmom lying at there sleeping

She look so skinny compare to last time i saw her..

Miss her so much..

My tear are almost coming out from my eye.Feel soooo sad when saw her in such skinny body

And she got no appetite to eat food.

Slowly wake her up..she look so surprise when saw me..

Having some conversation with her.

Great to see that she got the smiling face when i chat with her.

Wanna to let her to eat something..but she got no appetite

After that 阿姨 come,and bring her some homemade dishes.

She eat some of it.and the smilling face appear again at her face..

Leaving soon to my ah yi house..wanna to giv grandmum a good bye hug before leaving.but i scare that will hurt her..

BTW,she will be out from ward 2molo.Cnnt wait to see u again.

Grandmum..I miss u so much..Must Recover okay?i wanna to cook food for u...

LOVE U

From ur grandson Mao

Sunday Morning

The sunday morning in Kuantan..wanna sleep late late but....

Hear my father screaming outside my door.asking me to wake up..
i refuse to wake up..
and then he....
use medicated oil and apply on my nose...omg
So damn pain...
and i still dun wan to wake up
He use electric to shock me =.=
walao...
finally i wake up..brush teeth and eat bfast with parent
ASK ME to eat bfast used so many method to wake me up..geng lo

Ytd night was awesome..went to yc with my fren and kap ah gua..haha
Kuantan really boring =.=

Aiks

Yesterday My friend went to my house for movie shooting..

She bring a Very pretty de actress here

wakao...curly hair sommore..

haha,leng lui i no chance de la

so dint even look at her la..

Worrying about my assignment dat time.

Lost the chance of taking photo with leng lui

Arghh..

They do it until very late..about 4am ba.

i fall asleep and waked up by them on 4 am

Sorry ya..i kinda sleepy already

Cora,thanks for ur dougnut anyway..

On the process of their movie shooting.i took out my camera to play..and cora viewed my photo

I realize dat those photo long time dint see already..see it with them

And they viewed my ex gf photo.

Something going straight thru my heart

The feel is coming back

Feel sad...suddenly feel like wanna Cry

93 day passes since we break..

Should i Just Start a new relationship or maintain Single?

Or mayb wait for 6 year for another relationship?

I really not dare to start a relationship

Maocheng is totally a coward..

I dont deserve to get a gf..i am so sucks..

i Feel like i am giving bad luck to my other part if i am on relationship.

Aiks..