2009-2010

Year passed and passed

Everything seem pass so fast

Tuesday is my birthday..i am officially 19

And 2molo will be 2010 and i am unofficially 20

Damn...i only 19 for like 3 day?

SO unfair.haha..just simply blaming over here

getting fatter this 2 week

Miss GYM and Basketball alot..but nid to prepare for final exam..

Make my self a basketball jersey..

Named Mao square

Haha..quite yeng geh..but kinda long dat jersey..thanks piggy anyway..

Received 2 present from my friends...Fau exco gang and B1 BD gang...HAHA

Thanks alot..will be posting photo below this post

2009

a year that full of obstacle for me

I got my worst Result ever at this year

I get dumb by My gf this year

I get into Hospital this year and get stupid penyakit

But i do learn alot of thing

I learn to stay alone and take care myself

I learn to travel out from country alone

etc etc

Kinda unsatisfied with this year..but nvm..will be hardcore on everything next year

Gym,Basketball and Book is my life for next year..

LOL...

Blog

Long time dint post anything..

Passes my birthday.

As what i think..no surprise..

Dint disaapointed anyway..with the great wishes and msg from my buddy

thanks alot..

Present ur wishes to me is better than items.

We are still student.No income yet..haha

Sometime feel like wanna start a relationship

Envy on my buddy with their scene holding their gf while goin out

I am so helpless.

Dint back home for a period..Something happen in my family

While i still relaxing at KL?

i am the most sucks son ever.

Haiz..I nid some 1 to care me.i nid some 1 to talk with me thru phone

Someone that really care of me

And i hope the person was u.

I dun dare to disturb u

I really having alot problem

Why do others can goin thru their life so smooth?

And i need to step on so many obstacle?

i having the longest flu and sick ever in my life

Almost a week.

Suffering alot..i may bolo shoulder for others.but not borrowing from others.

I cnnt get good result in my exam

Others were so lovely with their gf bf.

And i was like alone to pass thru everything?

And why was other people parents are that lovely.

And why not in my family?

Shud just hide myself.Do the best for my family instead of making problem for them

Trying to get rid all of this..

Will Smile still appear on my face after this?The true smile or the fake?

Hey...

Hey guys =.=

Went to basketball just now from 6+ until 9

Back home and found dat alot message and miss call

mostly my fren =.=

just ignore the previous post ba..

blog is for release ur feeling

i wrote it on here.

u guys dun worry me so much la..i can survive..

Having a great time with u ah wu

dun worry..u guys dint effect my money la..

Good luck and have a nice holiday.

Currently In Troublesome Status

Very Suffer ar >.<

Sick now

My voice become so sexy

cnnt even go to see doctor

My wallet left RM20 and nid to stand until end of month

And i not dare to ask money from parent

There got alot problem nid to be solve..

i dun wan to giv them anymore problem.

And to be announce that 21 of dec is the date for me to start exam

Exam will be start on 14 of jan

Haha

Still owe kang yu RM310 and Sebastian RM40

OMG.......

Total of RM350

and i wont hav any new shirt to be wear for next year

Coz i not dare to ask money from parent

Everything relate to money need to be hold down

And my car broke down last day

called my parent

first sentence with : Dad,my car duno got what problem ler

Then end up with : I duno how u use car !! u walk to college la !!

Sigh..later most probably will jogging to college ba

My situation now is like a orphan..

Maybe i shud work now?

I dint pay for my electric,maintenance and internet fee for 1 month already !

Just Realize my birthday is 1 week later

Birthday mean what?It remind my mum that the dat she 'suffer the most pain moment in her life

that is born me out

Haha.

Going to be 19.My friends dun need to prepare any present or cake ok?

As usual i never receive any present in my 19 year lifetime..There is few .but can be counted in finger..haha

So..i use to be with it already

We all are just 19..mostly got no income yet..so just save ur money for ur bf or gf ba

Haha..

SMS me and greet me birthday more than enough already

LOL,miss u guys alot..will be holding my phone and wait u guys at 12am

So it is.

Not really addicted to online surf net anymore.

There is much more i need to do.

Will be starting to hardworking after this week

And....just ignore the previous post

Dont like any any girl now =)

Just wanna study hard.

MaoCheng is not eligible to start a relationship

Its so complicated

I like u
I spend some happy time with u.
I like the way u talking
I like the way u act
I dream of you almost everynite
but..i got no brave to asking u be my gf
i am nt good enough to be ur bf
There is lot more good guy behind
As those ppl usually say
IF the people u like is happy..u will happy too
Haha.
Dont feel like wanna start a relationship..
Feel like cnnt giv my other part of my life happiness..
Sometime i almost cnnt control myself..
typed a message

"Can we advance our relationship?from friends to girlfriends?Would u be my Girlfriend?"

But dint send it out la...haha..saved it a draft everytime..

Those friend that keep on questioning me who is that bad luck girl

Haha
here is some hint..
-She is younger than me(1 year 2 year 3 year?who know)haha
-Her hair is long (haha.kinda hard huh?)
-Wearing spectacle? (i oso duno..but mostly she is on contact lens)
-Super WHite skin (For me.. =p)
-Super lightweight girl.. 30+ to 40
-A girl that full of curiousity and kinda rude..haha

For those that know who is her.Please keep it as secret bah..
I dun wan scare her..
haha,thanks lot.

Sad Case

MUm..why dont u believe me?
Do u admit that i am ur son?
Please Do believe me.
i know there is something i hiding from u
but i promise it is not a bad thing

Seriously..having a conversation with mum just now
and i cried...i trying to solve the question she was asking
and she keep on blaming
i keep on explaining
Useless...she wont hear..everything..everything..Right is on her side..
Why?Why u keep on hurt me with those word?
And while i am still smiling explaining to u with tear?
Even its ur problem..and i am still saying sorry..
U are my mum..
Eventhou its ur wrong i will be blamed oso
i dun care bout tis..i wont argue..
because u still my mum..
Sorry...

Sigh

Not really Good mood nowaday..

But..

I dint express it out..

haha..kinda okay already now

This gonna be a long post...haha

sorry for the long post..just wanna express my feeling..sorry guys.

This Few Day keep on Drive between Seremban And KL

To visit my grandmom..

She kinda okay already..

But abit dizzy now..

Its worth for me to drive so far to find her.

Watch at her health getting better..Its Worth.

Payed her Hopsital money,RM5.5k shared among my mum and her 4 bro sis

Realize that my sight is getting worse.

Eye sight getting blur after drive for 1 hour..nid about 30min to recover to normal.

After get down from car.Look like a guy without spec.haha.kicked the platform nearby seremban jusco there and almost fall down =.=

Remember monday went seremban tat day..

kinda sad when visit my grandmum.tear almost coming out

take out my phone.and realize that i got no people to contact with

I lost a person that are important 100 day ago.therefore i doesnt expect to get any msg from her

And so,i lost contact with most of my fren too.at that time.i wont be blame u guys,coz i know if i got gf i will be like that too..

i do feel that i need soomeone that caring me..someone that will sms me all the time asking my status.

Jealous on those teenage that their hp keep on ringing.keep on smsing.and when they sms,smile appear on their face..

AIKS....

And so,i feel that i do really let go my ex gf already..

Feel that,her decision that dumb me is good.

It should be..

And i know we will not be forever since we together.

And i dint blame u of anything

I know i am not good enough

And i do not reach ur requirement

U were rich than me.i cnnt giv u something that are good

U doing Degree and me?only diploma..how am i giving u happiness for the future..

Yes,and u are really good,u become the bad person coz u started to say the break word.

And i am so naive that still wanna get back into the relationship

Sorry for everything..hope u and the guy will be okay all the time

(sorry ya.duno that guy de name)

For the 6 year that i told u i will be waiting u..

just ignore it

but i tink will be changed to 6 year without relationship ba

there is 4 girl chasing me now.but as u say..dont give fake hope to others.

kinda agree to that word..so i dint giving them hope.

I got no brave to start a relationship

but i do like a girl.

but i not dare to tell her

i scare she will ignore me afterward.

i am not good enough.

cnnt giv her what she wan.

i got no income.my education level and my appearance sucks

I got no more confident.

Just act like normal =)

Miss u and love u always my grandmother =)

Hope u recover soon.

Going to basketball in 8 hour time..

Love u grandmom

Today went back to KL..Mum fetch me..

After reach KL,put our stuff then my turn to drive to Seremban to visit My grandmum.

She got some problem on her stomach.Same as mine >.<

By using my GPS,used 1 hour to reach Columbia asia Hospital

Slowly push the ward door.saw my grandmom lying at there sleeping

She look so skinny compare to last time i saw her..

Miss her so much..

My tear are almost coming out from my eye.Feel soooo sad when saw her in such skinny body

And she got no appetite to eat food.

Slowly wake her up..she look so surprise when saw me..

Having some conversation with her.

Great to see that she got the smiling face when i chat with her.

Wanna to let her to eat something..but she got no appetite

After that 阿姨 come,and bring her some homemade dishes.

She eat some of it.and the smilling face appear again at her face..

Leaving soon to my ah yi house..wanna to giv grandmum a good bye hug before leaving.but i scare that will hurt her..

BTW,she will be out from ward 2molo.Cnnt wait to see u again.

Grandmum..I miss u so much..Must Recover okay?i wanna to cook food for u...

LOVE U

From ur grandson Mao

Sunday Morning

The sunday morning in Kuantan..wanna sleep late late but....

Hear my father screaming outside my door.asking me to wake up..
i refuse to wake up..
and then he....
use medicated oil and apply on my nose...omg
So damn pain...
and i still dun wan to wake up
He use electric to shock me =.=
walao...
finally i wake up..brush teeth and eat bfast with parent
ASK ME to eat bfast used so many method to wake me up..geng lo

Ytd night was awesome..went to yc with my fren and kap ah gua..haha
Kuantan really boring =.=

Aiks

Yesterday My friend went to my house for movie shooting..

She bring a Very pretty de actress here

wakao...curly hair sommore..

haha,leng lui i no chance de la

so dint even look at her la..

Worrying about my assignment dat time.

Lost the chance of taking photo with leng lui

Arghh..

They do it until very late..about 4am ba.

i fall asleep and waked up by them on 4 am

Sorry ya..i kinda sleepy already

Cora,thanks for ur dougnut anyway..

On the process of their movie shooting.i took out my camera to play..and cora viewed my photo

I realize dat those photo long time dint see already..see it with them

And they viewed my ex gf photo.

Something going straight thru my heart

The feel is coming back

Feel sad...suddenly feel like wanna Cry

93 day passes since we break..

Should i Just Start a new relationship or maintain Single?

Or mayb wait for 6 year for another relationship?

I really not dare to start a relationship

Maocheng is totally a coward..

I dont deserve to get a gf..i am so sucks..

i Feel like i am giving bad luck to my other part if i am on relationship.

Aiks..